Jen, I am just so overwhelmed with the everything of the everything. This post hit me like a ton of fucking bricks. To say that I resonated with it is the BIGGEST fucking understatement of the existence of words. I’m a Scorpio, with 4 Scorpio placements. I’m Taurus moon and Rising. I also have Taurus stelliums and Leo stelliums. The letter you wrote to your “Protector/Demon”, was something I’d write to my own. The synchronicities between parts of our stories is very similar. But the rabbit hole is identical. I knew something was up when I saw your face in your stories during the Con. Thank you for sharing all of this. I know you know how much this has helped me. I am so grateful for you. I will be doing some deep astral work today to untangle this ball of yarn of a mind of mine. Sending you so much love 💕
I want to hug you 😭 for so many reasons. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing these deep parts of yourself. I felt this so much and related to a lot of the feelings you described, as I’m also dealing with wounds that have just surfaced. In my meditations I keep feeling this, “ Valkyrie “ energy within myself and the way you described loving your feminine and masculine, reminds me of what I feel and the mechanisms I’ve also created to protect myself. 😭 you’ve made me laugh and cry throughout this post. What an honor it is to know more about you and your souls journey. I appreciate how raw and authentic you are too. 🥹
This piece is incredible, and the timing with some of the things coming up here is too great of a coincidence for me to ignore. I know you said you might never read this again, but I am about to dive back in and take notes! Thank you so much sharing this, you’ve helped me crack open some things I’d been overlooking in my self-reflection.
Like Joe dispensa, Eckhart tolle talks about this experience of how personality is a trauma response and how ego can be so demonic. Your experience and writing really brought it life and opened a new understanding for me. Thank you for sharing. My Jupiter is in Scorpio in the 12th house so all of this is so riveting and I love how far down the rabbit how you go. Here for it!
Beautiful piece. I work to remove, entities, attachments and energetic blocks through soul center healing hypnosis and I've seen some energies that are definitely created from wounds but also all sorts of things. I'm very open to different perspectives on it. They are all help to get us back to the light
Wow- thank you so much for this Jenn.. you had me in tears! As another Scorpio with 4 of those placements in my house of self worth- this hit really close to home for me. Everything you do resonates so strongly for me, and I admire you for being such a strong presence and light to us all. I appreciate the vulnerability in this post more than you know ❤️
So deep so honest so healing to read all of your experiences. Thanks for sharing. You are a light to this world. Who is Chelsea and how can I get in touch with her for a session. Proud Leo here that wants to take a deep dive as well. Love and light to you goddess. 💙
"We surprisingly turned out less fucked up than all the people who had lives we were jealous of" - damn. Thank you for sharing. It's amazing how much your experiences resonate. Growing up in a weird family, seeing all the other cookie cutter people in life wasn't easy but I wouldn't trade it.
This is an incredible read - the vulnerability is beautiful 💓💓💓 So happy you were able to face and release what isn’t serving you anymore!! Truly, hugely inspirational!!!
As a nonbeliever in most of this, I think your work/writing/videos is consistently the most interesting and “respectable” I’ve found. Also, you’re a TOOL fan so you’ve got that going for you also. Great job here too.
Hey Jen, Jeremy here from Australia... (linkedin guy)
I believe you are a good person, also in the forever existing battle between light and darkness, the things we are all manipulated/influenced by subconsciously in our environment whether that be directly or indirectly.
Trauma based dissociation, the fracturing of a person's frame of mind, makes the mind more malleable and/or susceptible to external influences in our surroundings, through methods subliminal or cognitive, thus our behaviors are affected (MKULTRA mandates).
Psychic abilities and that of those whom are more intuned per se, to the collective consciousness that everything is as a whole.... I.e The illusion of duality, when we all really come from the same source.
Consciousness is being attacked.
Which is pivotal, in the general understanding of existence itself.
I relate so much to you and this piece. I’m also 35, Scorpio rising with a Leo moon and Aquarius sun. To be fixed sign dominant definitely makes life interesting cuz we are the reflectors causing self-examination (including within ourselves!). I think like you I am meant to be a teacher with the coursework based on my own personal experiences, but my own ego/demons have been rooted in being afraid to be seen, and being afraid to be seen as anything other than perfect and non-offensive. So basically I have done nothing in my whole life that was motivated by my own personal dreams, vision and talents because I’ve been too scared. The only risks I’ve taken are romantic ones (and they weren’t good choices) because I needed love and approval SO BAD but I couldn’t give it to myself.
This is definitely activating some things within, as I search for a purpose to finally “start” my life with. Everything before this year seems to be just the getting-going phase, and like you I’ve been looking back at the last 15 years like “wtf!” but also closing out those stories and timelines one by one. I know I am so close, and maybe it’s already started, but the fear of surrender is still pretty strong and I’m still “working” too much at solutions to my problems (chronic health issues, money + housing shit, family dysfunction) rather than starting something that I can put my name on and be passionate about.
Truly, thank you for sharing so vulnerably. You are a light. ✨💛✨
Jen, I am just so overwhelmed with the everything of the everything. This post hit me like a ton of fucking bricks. To say that I resonated with it is the BIGGEST fucking understatement of the existence of words. I’m a Scorpio, with 4 Scorpio placements. I’m Taurus moon and Rising. I also have Taurus stelliums and Leo stelliums. The letter you wrote to your “Protector/Demon”, was something I’d write to my own. The synchronicities between parts of our stories is very similar. But the rabbit hole is identical. I knew something was up when I saw your face in your stories during the Con. Thank you for sharing all of this. I know you know how much this has helped me. I am so grateful for you. I will be doing some deep astral work today to untangle this ball of yarn of a mind of mine. Sending you so much love 💕
❤️❤️❤️
I want to hug you 😭 for so many reasons. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing these deep parts of yourself. I felt this so much and related to a lot of the feelings you described, as I’m also dealing with wounds that have just surfaced. In my meditations I keep feeling this, “ Valkyrie “ energy within myself and the way you described loving your feminine and masculine, reminds me of what I feel and the mechanisms I’ve also created to protect myself. 😭 you’ve made me laugh and cry throughout this post. What an honor it is to know more about you and your souls journey. I appreciate how raw and authentic you are too. 🥹
Awww Haley thank you ❤️❤️❤️
This piece is perfect for Pisces season! I resonate with a lot and thank you for your vulnerability. I hope you dance soon 💫
This piece is incredible, and the timing with some of the things coming up here is too great of a coincidence for me to ignore. I know you said you might never read this again, but I am about to dive back in and take notes! Thank you so much sharing this, you’ve helped me crack open some things I’d been overlooking in my self-reflection.
Like Joe dispensa, Eckhart tolle talks about this experience of how personality is a trauma response and how ego can be so demonic. Your experience and writing really brought it life and opened a new understanding for me. Thank you for sharing. My Jupiter is in Scorpio in the 12th house so all of this is so riveting and I love how far down the rabbit how you go. Here for it!
Beautiful piece. I work to remove, entities, attachments and energetic blocks through soul center healing hypnosis and I've seen some energies that are definitely created from wounds but also all sorts of things. I'm very open to different perspectives on it. They are all help to get us back to the light
Wow- thank you so much for this Jenn.. you had me in tears! As another Scorpio with 4 of those placements in my house of self worth- this hit really close to home for me. Everything you do resonates so strongly for me, and I admire you for being such a strong presence and light to us all. I appreciate the vulnerability in this post more than you know ❤️
First of all, great piece. Really you have again given me many insides. Things I am going to reflect on.
Also I love the art in between paragraphs. I sometimes get a little distracted by them, when I am reading. Thats how beautifull some of them are.
Love this way of seeing 💛
So deep so honest so healing to read all of your experiences. Thanks for sharing. You are a light to this world. Who is Chelsea and how can I get in touch with her for a session. Proud Leo here that wants to take a deep dive as well. Love and light to you goddess. 💙
Hiiii I just got a notification to my inbox for this comment today... over a year later
here's Chelsea:
https://www.instagram.com/frankincensed/
her booking info:
https://beacons.ai/frankincensed?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaZlAoUju1sPxr7KmgN6F6xj1fpcV6Po0R73l8JHhBl7nG0J3QwA5gpzWEU_aem_OexgzwuqvWrxScxfEwRNAQ
Thk u!
Thx!
"We surprisingly turned out less fucked up than all the people who had lives we were jealous of" - damn. Thank you for sharing. It's amazing how much your experiences resonate. Growing up in a weird family, seeing all the other cookie cutter people in life wasn't easy but I wouldn't trade it.
This is an incredible read - the vulnerability is beautiful 💓💓💓 So happy you were able to face and release what isn’t serving you anymore!! Truly, hugely inspirational!!!
As a nonbeliever in most of this, I think your work/writing/videos is consistently the most interesting and “respectable” I’ve found. Also, you’re a TOOL fan so you’ve got that going for you also. Great job here too.
I appreciate your vulnerability here and the timing of this post is just perfection. Thank you for sharing!
Hey Jen, Jeremy here from Australia... (linkedin guy)
I believe you are a good person, also in the forever existing battle between light and darkness, the things we are all manipulated/influenced by subconsciously in our environment whether that be directly or indirectly.
Trauma based dissociation, the fracturing of a person's frame of mind, makes the mind more malleable and/or susceptible to external influences in our surroundings, through methods subliminal or cognitive, thus our behaviors are affected (MKULTRA mandates).
Psychic abilities and that of those whom are more intuned per se, to the collective consciousness that everything is as a whole.... I.e The illusion of duality, when we all really come from the same source.
Consciousness is being attacked.
Which is pivotal, in the general understanding of existence itself.
And everyone appears to be sleep walking.
I relate so much to you and this piece. I’m also 35, Scorpio rising with a Leo moon and Aquarius sun. To be fixed sign dominant definitely makes life interesting cuz we are the reflectors causing self-examination (including within ourselves!). I think like you I am meant to be a teacher with the coursework based on my own personal experiences, but my own ego/demons have been rooted in being afraid to be seen, and being afraid to be seen as anything other than perfect and non-offensive. So basically I have done nothing in my whole life that was motivated by my own personal dreams, vision and talents because I’ve been too scared. The only risks I’ve taken are romantic ones (and they weren’t good choices) because I needed love and approval SO BAD but I couldn’t give it to myself.
This is definitely activating some things within, as I search for a purpose to finally “start” my life with. Everything before this year seems to be just the getting-going phase, and like you I’ve been looking back at the last 15 years like “wtf!” but also closing out those stories and timelines one by one. I know I am so close, and maybe it’s already started, but the fear of surrender is still pretty strong and I’m still “working” too much at solutions to my problems (chronic health issues, money + housing shit, family dysfunction) rather than starting something that I can put my name on and be passionate about.
Truly, thank you for sharing so vulnerably. You are a light. ✨💛✨